Friday, April 30, 2010

Made my step target today

Well let me see....long day, stressful day, tired, ready to go home but glad I'm here.  That about sums it up.  Today was good overall, a bit emotional at times but came through strong.  I'm glad I'm here with my son and his daughter but sure wish we didn't have to be here. 
I told you yesterday that I was going to get on that bike in the laundry room here at the house where we are staying... it didn't happen.  I tried the bike but the peddle was messed up so that was out... got on the elliptical and did a couple minutes but it is so old and loud and don't think my knees are ready for the one here.  Maybe next week I will try the one at the gym. I am stiff and achy from all the sitting and lack of exercise.... I need my gym!   I have to say that I did make a couple of my targets today... walking back and forth between the hospital and the house definitely helped with that. 
I am also proud to say that I ate fruit and veggies today along with my meals.  When some of the meals are provided you eat what is given so food choice wasn't always the best but I did make sure and eat my fruits and veggies.  I did notice however that I wasn't drinking nearly as much water today so now while I'm here I need to concentrate on my water and fruits and veggies and just do the best with what I have.
I have met so many wonderful people while I've been here and I know that if it wasn't for friends and Heavenly Father I wouldn't be coping as well as I have been. 

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 40 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/29/2010: 2917 calories burned, 6709 steps, 42 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Not in my regular routine

Good Evening!  Today was definitely not what I was expecting.  It started out with a visit to Sasha with my son and although things are very stressful and tough I had a good day.  You have to learn to make the best of what you have and that is what I tried to do today.
The social worker got visitation set up and helped make arrangements for us to have a place to stay while we prepare for Monday.  On Monday Sasha will begin her journey home to Heavenly Father so this weekend all the family is gathering to say their goodbyes.  I love her so much but I know she is going to a better place.
As suspected exercise was not the top priority today however I got a little bit of walking in... more than I have been getting while at the hospital.  I am excited to say that I have access to an elliptical machine and a recumbent bike so if all goes well tomorrow morning before I head to the hospital maybe I can get a few minutes in on the bike. 
As far as food goes I haven't done very good today....cheese omelet and a hash-brown patty for breakfast.  A slice of cheese pizza for lunch and nachos with cheese and chicken nuggets for supper.  Yiks!  That looks even worse when you have to write it out.  I didn't even eat veggies or fruit today... dang what's wrong with me.  I will have to do better tomorrow.
I know I'm not in my regular routine but that is no excuse for not at least trying to eat somewhat healthy.  We all make choices and today mine weren't good choices.  Maybe I can blame it on me needing comfort foods...lol.    Well the day is about over so I'm going to leave you with my numbers as usual.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 40 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/28/2010: 2991 calories burned, 5344 steps, 21 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Hey I ate my veggies....

Good Evening It's been an eventful day to say the least.  Got up and was at work at 6am.  After route talked to son to see if Sasha was being transferred... answer was no.  We decided to drive to St. Louis because we were tired of being in limbo and not knowing when she would be transferred.  I went home and was getting packed to leave and Levi decided to call the hospital in KC just to double check before we left... answer still no.  Twenty minutes later we get a call back from KC hospital.... she is getting transferred.  What a relief!
Well the only exercise I got was walking at work and  in and out of the hospital and through the halls...woohoo!  If I had known what the day was going to be like I could have ran to the gym before we left and got in a little cardio but everything was such a mess.  I'm glad it all worked out!  Levi really needs to be with his daughter right now....she is the apple of his eye!  I wish we could afford to just stay here with her all the time but we can't.
Hey I ate my veggies today does that count for anything?  Oh and I almost forgot.... I weighed in and I am officially 286 lbs.... down 21.5lbs.  If working out 2 hrs a day helps that much come off that quick I would like a room at the gym please.  I will move out in a month after I have shed 30lbs...lol.  I am excited to lose each and every pound or two or three.  I know my numbers the next few days won't be what they should and I know making my targets will be basically impossible while I'm here but I won't be here forever and I can just watch what I eat and do the best I can.
Tomorrow will be a long day and it's after 11pm so I should probably get headed for the night.  Keep the prayers coming and chat with you all again tomorrow.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 40 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/27/2010: 3440 calories burned, 9816 steps, 55 min moderate exercise and 30 min vigorous exercise

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

A little exercise is better than none

So I was supposed to go back to the hospital today but plans fell through.  I had the day off work and planned to head out about 8am so I got to sleep it a little.  By the time all the plans were finalized it was after 11am and I had already missed a half a day of work which equals fewer steps.
I went in to work this afternoon and enjoyed my afternoon route.  With my schedule change today I wasn't going to make it to the gym but I decided to go in after work for a few.  I only had about an hour and by the time I got out of work and over there I had about 40 minutes.  I figured 40 minutes were better than nothing.  I put in 20 minutes on the recumbent bike and 20 minutes on the recumbent cross trainer.  Wish I had more time there...ohh well.
On the way home I had my hubby drop me off about a mile from home so I could get a few more steps in for the day because once I get home I don't get that many.  My 8 yr old son walked with me so it was a little slower than normal but it was still exercise.
Tomorrow my son and I are definitely headed for the hospital to see Sasha.  I miss her so much!  I know I won't be getting any exercise so I will have to be extremely good on my food choices.  Well I have a really long day ahead of me tomorrow so I gonna sign off.  Yesterdays numbers were really good and today are okay.  Until tomorrow...

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 40 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/26/2010: 4444 calories burned, 18646 steps, 1 hr 20 min moderate exercise and 57 min vigorous exercise

Monday, April 26, 2010

Rocked the gym!

Well I overslept this morning because my alarm didn't go off.  I did manage to make it to work on time.  I was determined to make today a better day than the last two.  I did it!  I made today a better day.  I'm not saying that I haven't been sad or depressed or that I haven't cried some tears but I did try to stay as calm and positive as i could under the circumstances.
I hit the gym shortly after 11am and put in 2 hrs of pretty aggressive exercise.  Actually I think I may have pushed too much too hard.  I feel good but my back between my shoulders is out I think.  Hopefully it's just tight from working the muscles so much for the first time.  Here is what I got in:

40 minutes on the treadmill
10 minutes on arm bike
30 minutes on recumbent bike
30 minutes on cross trainer
10 minutes on the treadmill

I will be excited to share my numbers tomorrow with everyone.
I am proud of myself for making it back to the gym today.  I was telling a friend of mine today that I need to remember when I'm sad or depressed etc to go ahead and go to the gym because I will feel better when I leave.  There is something about accomplishing a task that I need to do for myself and my health that is very empowering.  Six months ago I had a gym membership that I was paying for and never used.  I kept paying in hopes that someday I would actually use it.  I had good intentions but didn't follow through but I knew if I canceled my membership I would probably never sign back up.
What is it about this silly armband that makes things different for someone like me?  This armband is helping me change my life and and I am so happy to have it as my daily partner.  BodyMedia Fit/ GWF where have you been all my life cuz I think I'm in love...lol.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 40 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/25/2010: 2762 calories burned, 2501 steps, 5 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Plugging along

Okay so I guess I lied.  I had good intentions of going to the gym and getting some exercise in.  I had a horrible time trying to go to sleep last night.  I was still awake at 1:30am and the awake again at 6:30am.  Every time I laid my head on that pillow my brain started spinning and thoughts turned to Sasha and worrying about her and what all my son and rest of the family are facing this next week.
I was up and ready for church early this morning and stress in the house is very apparent and affecting all of us.  Once I was at church my youngest boy started running a fever and not feeling well.  We ended up leaving early and going home.  After a late lunch my head and eyes were aching terribly and all I wanted to do was take a nap.  I laid down and was asleep almost as soon as my head hit the pillow.  Boy did i need that.
Then this evening I get online to find that Sasha's mom deleted me from facebook to further keep me from info on Sasha.  It seems that at every turn things are crumbling around me.  I have got to fight through this but its really hard for me right now.
Since I spent most of my afternoon sleeping I didn't get to the gym and have no exercise equipment here at home... I need my own treadmill.  Back to work tomorrow and then headed for the hospital on Tuesday.   I am looking forward to work and routine tomorrow.... I need to focus on something other than my troubles.
I am so sorry that this blog has become such a depressing thing to read and that I really don't have any success to report right now.  Hopefully soon my life will calm down and I can catch a second wind. Until then I will just plug along and do what I can when I can. 

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 40 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/24/2010: 2586 calories burned, 1705 steps, 1 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Rough Day Today

Based on the title of this post it hasn't been a good day.  Emotionally and physically I am just drained.  I exercised yesterday and needed every bit of it but today I just couldn't get myself to go.  I slept in this morning and then went to watch my daughter on her bowling league and figured I would exercise in the early afternoon...didn't happen.
I was told by my son that Sasha was doing worse.  Her brain damage was increasing and her functionality was decreasing.  The doctors in St. Louis said that there was nothing left for them to do to help her heart.  They will still run some test at the beginning of next week and then she will be transferred back to Childrens Mercy in KC where hospice and comfort care will be discussed. On top of this information I received more sad news... my Aunt Letha passed away last night.  I have just been in my own world today and having trouble getting out. 
I know the best thing I could have done today was to get up and go walk out some of the stress but for today my depression won the battle.  Tomorrow is another day and another fight.  I will do my best to find the strength to move forward. 

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 40 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/23/2010: 3812 calories burned, 10894 steps, 39 min moderate exercise and 36 min vigorous exercise

Friday, April 23, 2010

Achy Knees

After all the rain we had yesterday I was concerned we were going to have a lot of flooding today but other than some morning showers it's been a fairly nice day.  I was up early this morning so I could make it to work on time via the long way to town because of flooded roads.
After morning route instead of working in the office I went to the preschool (3 and 4 yr olds) and taught bus safety instructions and evacuation procedures to all of the morning students.  I haven't done that in a while and really enjoy spending time with suck a great group of students.
On break I did 7 miles on the bike and the rest of the hour on the cross trainer. I'm thinking I would have been better off walking on the treadmill for a few before going to the bike.  My knees were fine at the time but later swelled a bit and hurt a lot.  I put some Bio-freeze on them and it helped some.  I would like to get 2 hours of exercise in tomorrow so I will do like I did last week and just keep rotating machines.
Late afternoon I began just feeling really down and depressed.  This isn't good for me... it's something I battle but it is amplified these days.  It's strange how one minute I can laugh at a joke and be totally cool and then 20 minutes later I'm upset and depressed and thinking about my son and his daughter..  I've done a good job keeping myself in check at work and not being too emotional. 
I've been doing good with my water but I did forget to eat this morning and had to make it up a little later.  I know it's just because my mind is wandering when I'm not busy.  Well I hope everyone had a great day.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/22/2010: 3997 calories burned, 11875 steps, 1 hr 7 min moderate exercise and 23 min vigorous exercise

Thursday, April 22, 2010

19 lbs. lost...can't believe it

 It was sure nice to be back on regular routine again today even though it won't last for long.  Rain, rain and more rain is what we had here in Emporia Kansas today.  We ended up with 3 inches which in turn made me drive several miles out of my way to get home due to all the flooding in our area.  The temp on the tech college sign today said it was -198F when we headed for the middle school this afternoon.  That was quite funny to see... we said "if it's that cold we need to be at home".  I wonder how long it took for them to realize the sign was malfunctioning.
I was very happily surprised this morning when I woke up and weighed in and found that even with the lack of exercise and not eating the best I still managed to lose some weight...yay me!  I am officially down 19 lbs now I know it should be more by now but considering I've been dealing with a setback of some sort every time I turn around I am happy with 19lbs down.  I managed to make it to the gym today and got in a hour of exercise.  I really wanted more but my schedule was a bit hectic today.  I'm really hoping everything works out where I can get more in tomorrow.
Well I still need to catch up on some sleep so I'm gonna call this good for tonight and head for bed.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/21/2010: 2585 calories burned, 2805 steps, 11 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Stressed Out



Yesterday and today have not been very good.  I have been extremely stressed out and doing good to just function.  Yesterday was spent waiting all day for MRI results to come back for my grand daughter and when they did the results weren't good.  We spent the afternoon and evening in shock, tears, sadness, fear followed by numbness.  To make a long story short son sons little girl is in heart failure and had a double stroke on Friday when she had trouble breathing and turned blue.  As a consequence she now has brain damage and it's doubtful she will qualify for a heart transplant.






The Dr.'s want her to rest and recuperate until next Tuesday when they do another MRI to get a better view of the extent of her brain damage.  Then Wednesday they will do the Chest Cath to look at her heart and find out what our options will be from there.  My son and I came home today to tie down some loose ends and get ready for another long week to come.
After a major headache and short sleep night we spent over 6 hrs in the car driving home.  I am returning to work for Thurs Fri and Mon then we are off to St Louis Childrens Hospital again.  That will give my son time to make work and college arrangements.  I got home and am just absorbing right now.



My numbers the last few days have not been positive but while I'm home I am making a promise to myself to do the best I can to work some of this stress out and work on myself a bit.  I need to mentally and physically prepare for whats to come.   I will weigh in tomorrow morning and see if I have maintained or gained weight this last week. 





Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/20/2010: 2682 calories burned, 4385 steps, 23 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Monday, April 19, 2010

Not much activity

There is not a whole lot to say today other than I didn't do much of anything.  I'm still in St. Louis at the hospital with my son and his daughter.  It's been a long day of waiting for this and that.  I planned to explore the hospital some but didn't get to do as much as I was hoping for.  I will have to get on the ball tomorrow and find some exercise because I am seriously sore from all the sitting.
As far as my food choices I tried to choose the best I could from what is here so I think I did okay but who knows.  I have been drinking a lot of water so that's a good thing.  My sleep hasn't been good but I am extremely tired so maybe when I'm done with this I will just pass out tonight. 

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/18/2010: 3009 calories burned, 7424 steps, 42 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Sunday, April 18, 2010

A little but not a lot

Well good evening it has been a very long and tiring day today.  We were in Kansas City at Childrens Mercy Hospital and didn't get to bed until quite late last night.  The bed at the hospital was a sleep number bed of some sort.  First of all its been a long time since I have slept on a twin bed and second I had to keep letting air our because I thought I was gonna roll off the bed.  It felt like I was on a beach ball...lol. 
I was up at 7am to go see my grand daughter and get started for the day.  Over all she had a better day today than yesterday.  She was transferred to St. Louis around mid-day and is stable and doing best that can be expected at this time.  Please keep the Prayers coming.
Anyway I was bugging out early in the day because I knew I would get any exercise in so while I was waiting for them to prep her for transport I walked in place and kept rocking back and forth from heels to toes.  Any little thing I could do to stimulate a calorie burn without drawing a lot of attention to myself...lol.  I did pretty good for that little bit of time but then we got in the car and I spent 4 1/2hrs driving to st. Louis and that ruined what I had started. 
Diet was not as good as it should be.... not eating for long periods of time then eating too much of a good thing which actually means too much of a bad thing.  I guess it's a good thing I got 4 hrs in the last couple of days.  Maybe tomorrow I will tour this hospital... it's huge and there are 12 floors to explore.  The area outside around the hospital is not the greatest area so I won't be walking outside.
Well it's time for me to try and get some sleep so I can be up for rounds at 6:30am.  We are sleeping in the parents lounge with 10 or 12 other people...hope I can sleep.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/17/2010: 4556 calories burned, 16177 steps, 1hr 11 min moderate exercise and 1 hr 12 min vigorous exercise

Saturday, April 17, 2010

I amazed myself today

When I woke up this morning I wasn't so sure that I was going to be able to exercise for two hours straight.  My daughter Janessa had bowling league from 10-12 this morning and I planned to exercise while she was there.  I almost psyched myself out of going.  I was worried.  Yesterday was the first day of working out for two hours and today I was gonna have to do it all at once without taking a break.

Here is what I did:
35 min on treadmill (speed 3.2)
10 min on hand bike (URB)
20 min on recumbent bike (4 miles resistance 5)
20 min on recumbent cross trainer (resistance 6)
15 min recumbent bike (3 miles resistance 6)
20 min on treadmill (speed 3.2)

I left feeling tired but good.  Then I got to thinking about tomorrow and wondering if I could do it three days in a row.  After the gym my daughter and I ran some errands and arrived home around 2:30 ish. 
About 3:30pm my son called and said his daughter had been flown from Emporia to Kansas City and wasn't doing well and that tomorrow they were transferring her to St. Louis.  We both had a couple of loose ends to take care of then we headed for KC where we are now.  She is in heart failure and they don't know if they will be able to repair her valve or if she will have to have a heart transplant.  Any questions or comments about her please send directly to my email : luvmybus@att.net . Please say lots of prayers for her.
Over all I had a really good day and truly amazed myself that I did 2 hrs exercise yesterday by myself as well as 2 hrs straight today by myself.  I guess I need to learn to have more faith in myself.  Well unfortunately there is no gym here at the hospital so I will only gets steps in tomorrow and it's going to be a long day.  Goodnight all!

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/16/2010: 4795 calories burned, 18084 steps, 1hr 28 min moderate exercise and 1 hr 19 min vigorous exercise

Friday, April 16, 2010

I did it !!

Wow what a day.  I have been so blessed to make such wonderful friends online who both inspire and support me.  I woke up this morning feeling really good with exception to my sacroiliac which will still need attention for awhile.
While visiting with a friend who has been working extremely hard on burning her calories etc and has been putting in over 2 hrs a day and still struggling to meet her numbers I got to thinking.  I thought, if she can put in that much time in one day I should be able to also.  I decided that on my break I would put in one hour and then after work I would put in another hour.... guess what I did it and I survived!  Thanks "B" for pushing me to push myself.
It goes without saying that when I walked out of that gym this evening I had a giant grin on my face that nobody could have wiped off.  On hour one I did 35 min on the treadmill and 20 min on the bike (3 miles on bike).  On hour two I planned to do the treadmill and then another 2 miles on the bike because I wanted to beat yesterdays 4 miles.  Well I did another 35 min on the treadmill and 25 min on the bike and went 4 miles for a total of 7 miles today on a bike...yeehaw.
With the extra time I put in all of my targets were met very early including my calorie burn for the day.  I am so excited that I pushed and put in the extra time.  I'm a bit achy this evening but look forward to seeing if I can repeat this again tomorrow.  I'm so glad that I am finally feeling better and now it's time to make up for what I missed out on.  Gym you are gonna be my best friend!!

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/15/2010: 3778 calories burned, 11285 steps, 1hr 18 min moderate exercise and 14 min vigorous exercise

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Finally Back to Exercise

It turned out to be a very good day.  I didn't want to get out of bed this morning but I'm sure glad I did.  The meds are kicking in and I'm finally starting to feel better.  My husband bless his heart fixed me biscuits and gravy for breakfast so food wise I didn't get off to a good start but they did taste good...lol. 
It was a day of work as usual and I was feeling better so I brought my gym cloths in hopes of heading for the gym.  The weather was just perfect today and I probably should have walked outside instead of going to the gym but hey I do have to get my moneys worth. 
After work I changed and was ready to go to the gym and realized that I left my earbuds in my car and the hubby had it.   I will tell you this, never go exercise without a buddy if you don't have your music.  That was the longest hour at the gym I've had.  I like having the music to help me keep pace and stay moving.  I had to keep myself moving and I found it hard to get myself in a zone.  I did manage to do 35 min on the treadmill before my toes cramped up.  Then I went to the recumbent bike and did about 15 or 20 min.  Because this was my first day working out since being sick I didn't push myself quite as hard as I usually do.  I did feel really good when I was done.
In the next few days I will go back to the chiropractor to get adjusted again.  I was in a lot of pain for the first 20 minutes on the treadmill  and then it eased up.  I'm glad that I'm feeling better and I can get back to becoming fit. 

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/14/2010: 3357 calories burned, 6184 steps, 51 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Listening to my body

Okay so it's Wednesday and still no real exercise going on here.  I am still not up to par so I did not go to the gym.  I'm still have pressure and pain in my lower back and abdomen with spasms.  As much as I hate it I had to listen to my body and take yet another day off.  The walking I got in was just what I did at work.
After my morning route and office shift I came home on break and fell asleep in the recliner.  I have just been so tired these days trying to fight all this.  I've kept my water bottle handy everywhere I go and trying to continue to push fluids.  I took my gym clothes so that if I was up to it after work I could go walk on the treadmill, but I just wasn't up to it.  I have now been on meds for 24 hrs so maybe tomorrow will be the turning point on the illness and I will start improving.
I spent my evening at church watching the Cub Scouts shoot off their homemade rockets.  That was a lot of fun!  The boys all did a really good job but as usual have way too much energy for their own good.  "J" is so good with all them boys and is so dedicated, I love her.  I admire her for everything she does.  By the time we finished and I waited for the Boy Scouts to finish it was 8:30 pm. 
It's been a very long day but overall not a bad day.  I'm looking forward to being on the mend and getting back to the routine I was getting settled into.  Well hope everyone had a great day.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/13/2010: 3207 calories burned, 6845 steps, 23 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Why not me?

Here is another day... still not feeling well.  I managed to get up and go to work.  Feeling decent I drove my route then ran an errand or two and came home for break.  Time just flies by when I'm home.  I really needed a nap but didn't have time.  I called the Dr. office about 8:40am this morning but never heard back from them.  As the day progressed I began feeling worse.  My lower abdomen was aching and feeling heavy and my lower back felt a lot of pressure.  What is going on?
About 2pm I finally gave in and called the Dr. back and they wanted to see me but I either had to go as a walk in after 5pm today or wait until 11:30am tomorrow.  By the time I got off afternoon route I was miserable and the pressure in my lower back was getting worse.  The AZO is just not cutting it.  I went to the walk in clinic and finally was able to get some meds.  They wanted to put me on a three day med dose but I reminded them that three days didn't work last time.  They put me on a med I haven't heard of before for a week.  They think that maybe when I had it in January that we never completely got rid of the infection and that maybe I'm resistant to some of the meds.
This evening I have been having what seems to be spasms in my abdomen and lower back.  The Dr. said the infection has cause swelling and fluid retention and that is what is causing the discomfort on top of the urgency to have to urinate. I apologize for the whole TMI thing but that is who I am.  Sometimes too blunt.
I was in tears this afternoon because I feel like I'm losing. I want to exercise, I feel like being ill is causing me to slide backwards.  My body does not like to lose weight... it wants me fat.  I want to be healthier and thinner.  I want this illness to just go away and bother someone else. 
While sitting her writing this suddenly I am reminded of something a wise man once said to me.  Why not you?  He said why not you, you are strong, you are a fighter, why not you?  Trials come to those whom God feels are strong enough to handle them.  Even though sometimes we feel like we are being punished we need to look at it differently, these things make us stronger.  So guess what as frustrating as this is I need to find in myself what God see's and fight for myself.  I will get past being ill and then it is up to me to start over and do this once again.  Maybe this is to see if I will follow through because so many times before I quit or given up.
I'm hoping that tomorrow I have enough relief to get some real exercise it, I need it so bad.  My eating habits weren't bad today but they weren't good either.  I think I have momentarily lost focus and need to tighten the reins and hit things hard this next week.  I am strong and I can do this and I can do this by myself.  I will succeed!

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/12/2010: 3428 calories burned, 5948 steps, 40 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Monday, April 12, 2010

Not the Monday I was hoping for...

Good Evening all today got off to a really rough start.  I still wasn't feeling well and didn't get the exercise it that I was hoping for.  After my morning bus route I asked my boss to take off my mid-day office time to go home and lay down.  I came home and ate a couple eggs, V8 splash and headed for bed with my water bottle.  I have been pushing Cranberry juice and water and still not getting a lot better.  My immune system is apparently not up to par.
I slept from 9:30am to 1:10pm and boy did my body need it.  I felt better but not great but it was time to go drive kids home from school.  I was still a lot better than this morning.  My walking was just the basics today nothing pushed and nothing at the gym.  I'm missing the gym and missing the exercise... I'm getting stiff from all the sitting. 
Tomorrow has got to be a better day because I need to get back on track.  I have gained weight being sick and retaining fluids.  Now I have to lose back what I already lost...grrrr.  According to the scale I gained 5lbs from Saturday morning to Monday morning....me not a happy camper!  It had better just be fluids and come back off because I can't lose 5lbs as quick as I can gain it. 
I would like to ask for prayers for my granddaughter Sasha.  She was born with HLHS (half a heart) in Oct of 2008 and has been through a lot of surgeries and trials with her condition.  This last week or so she has been having some problems and my son is still waiting to find out what they want to do for her.  She is a beautiful little lady and needs all the prayers she can get.  Thanks! 
I will leave you with the horrible numbers from my couch potato day yesterday...lol.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/11/2010: 2652 calories burned, 1356 steps, 0 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Couch Potato Day

Well the title says it all.  I have done basically nothing all day unless you count drinking cranberry juice and going pee.  Yes you guessed it... UTI I hate them.  I'm not sure if it's meds from head cold and bronchitis or what but this is the same thing that happened when I got sick with this in January.  I had such a good week and even did good at the MS walk being sick and all.  I still have this stupid bronchitis and wish it would go away.  I want to move forward.
I have  been sleepy and just overall not feeling well most of the day.  I decided to take a day off and just chill, but problem with that is I get hungry faster, or at least it seems like it.  With all the juice I've been pushing today I don't even want to see the calories.... ohhh well.  I will fight back tomorrow.  Well since it was a quiet day and nothing eventful to report I will leave you with yesterdays numbers.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/10/2010: 3332 calories burned, 9407 steps, 1hr 9 min moderate exercise and 8 min vigorous exercise

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Great Day for a Walk

What a great day for the MS walk.  I got to sleep in until 7:30am this morning.... 9 would have been better.  I usually sleep in until around 9 am on Saturdays to make up for lack of sleep during the week. 
I arrived and got Registered for the walk at 9am this morning.  Shortly there after my nerves started taking over because I didn't know if this was s short 2 mile walk or something as long as 10 miles etc. I was pleased to hear that if we wanted to do the short walk it was one lap that they had marked off and the long one was two laps.  I think their distance was off but based on what they said one lap was 2 miles and two laps was 4 miles.  When I completed the second lap I thought to myself.... do one more... so I did.  I was so proud of myself for going that extra lap especially when I didn't have to.
After the walk they fed us Pizza Ranch pizza and handed out door prizes.  I was the first name drawn and won two $10 gift certificates to Carlos O Kelly's.  I'm excited about that because it has been forever since I have been there. 
After the walk I came home and fell asleep in the recliner....gee that didn't help my numbers for the day.  I'm still battling this head cold and bronchitis so I guess I needed the sleep.  Then I watched my youngest son play the wii.  After that my chihuahua went into labor and I have been cooped up in the bedroom with her all afternoon and evening sitting on the bed with a pad and playing mid-wife.  It's 11:22pm and we have only had two pups.  She has had a long slow labor so far and I was hoping to be to bed by midnight, but thats not looking good at this point.
My eating hasn't been great today and although I did the walk I haven't done anything else today so my numbers aren't as awesome as I was hoping for.  Oh well another day.  I'm tired  but really glad I participated today and I plan to find as many Cause walks as possible to participate in.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/9/2010: 4090 calories burned, 14440 steps, 1hr 12 min moderate exercise and 32 min vigorous exercise

Friday, April 9, 2010

Ready for the MS Walk tomorrow

I'm excited, I'm ready!  MS walk here I come.  While I was collecting money for the walk from my co-workers I was told that the donation was $1 per mile.  Here is my issue... my largest single donation at this point is $25 so I guess I'm expected to walk 25miles tomorrow.  Not sure my body at this point could walk 25 miles and I think it would take me all weekend to walk it...lol.  I will walk to the end or until I collapse but I promise to do my very best.  I appreciate the donations I have received just wish I had time to collect more.
Today was good.  I was up at 5am and at work by 6am as usual and feeling pretty good.  I have a few new sensations after getting adjusted yesterday but feel really good.  I worked until 11am and then had lunch with a friend then headed home.  I arrived back to work early and went on a 15min walk with a co-worker.  The weather was great again today, I don't mind the extreme wind because it helps keep me cool when walking.
After work I walked next door to Emporia Fitness and enjoyed a nice fast paced walk on the tread mill and the cross trainer.  I think Monday I will try one of the other machines, just worry about my knees as they are in really bad shape.  I need to start doing different machines if I plan to keep improving. 
I don't know how fast most people loose in the first few weeks but I am slow and steady and I would like to be down 30lbs by mid June.  I think that is a reasonable goal to set based on my stats so far in this journey.  I want to look and feel better when I go to School Bus Road-e-o on June 14th.  I have one award to receive and plan to win another one during the contest.  After looking back at last years pictures it will be nice to see some visible improvement when I compare photos.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/8/2010: 3530 calories burned, 8598 steps, 59 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Thursday, April 8, 2010

15 lbs in 6 weeks...yeehaw!!

I woke up this morning and was so excited to see the scales...292.5lbs. that's 15lbs in 6 weeks!  I'm on my way so watch out for me!  It's a good feeling to finally be making a positive change in my life and doing it the right way.  I'm not doing things perfectly by any means but I am improving.
Everyday I'm learning more about myself mentally and emotionally.  The discovery of how I'm starting to view things differently is really cool to me.  I hate to admit it but I'm starting to like getting exercise and working out.  Not only am I starting to feel better physically but emotionally as well.  I can only hope these changes continue as time goes by.
Today was a beautiful day!  It was a nice cool morning and a perfect afternoon.  We had a safety meeting at work so I stayed busy this morning.  My sacroiliac has been out and I have been in a lot of pain while walking/exercising.  I was hurting pretty bad yesterday so I set an appointment for the popping Dr. today after work.  I didn't think it was wise to go to the gym after seeing the chiropractor, besides after getting popped back it I was in as much or more pain than before for a little while.  It has been about 4 yrs since I have been to the chiropractor if that tells you how long I have been out of whack.
I did get some walking in today just not as much as if I had gone to the gym.  I'm glad tomorrow is Friday as I'm looking forward to this weekend.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/7/2010: 4014 calories burned, 15582 steps, 54 min moderate exercise and 48 min vigorous exercise

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Today was a Good Day!

Today was a good day!  I posted on Facebook last night that I'm going to walk for MS on saturday and said I wanted to try on short notice to raise $100 for the cause.  I made it!! I''m so excited about the walk this weekend and hope I can do the MS and the sponsors proud.
It was a cooler day after the rain and storms yesterday.  I was a little tired and drained but overall feeling better everyday.  My hubby said I made him sick and that he doesn't like me anymore...lol.  I'm feeling better and he's feeling worse the poor guy.  Hehehe I'm so mean.
Work was pretty good and I ate smart today other than I really needed more fruits and veggies.  After work I went to Emporia Fitness by myself and worked out.  I'm so proud of myself because I pushed and got in an awesome workout. I put in over an hour killing calories.  I am slowing raising the bar for myself...no pain no gain.  I feel rough at the beginning and and unsure in the middle then determined after that.  My emotions and feeling just cycle during my workout but when I'm done I feel relieved and great. Thank you Go Wear Fit/ Body Media Fit for helping me!

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/6/2010: 3635 calories burned, 12887 steps, 1hr 7 min moderate exercise and 19 min vigorous exercise

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

A Step in the Right Direction

Today was a much better day from beginning to end.  I still had head and chest issues but they were getting better.  When I went to the Dr. she was as excited about my weight loss as I was and also very curious about my GWF (Go Wear Fit).  We updated my meds and she said my heart and lungs sounded fine and that the funky feelings I have been getting now and then were just from starting workout and my body adjusting.  With my Bronchitis she just said to take it easy but that all was good.
We had the fitness group from ESU come to work for a meeting today.  A few weeks back they were here to teach us about our bodies and food, what to eat etc.  Today they came back and talked about exercises and gave us a bunch of basics to follow and demonstrated some as well..
After work my daughter met me and we hit that gym.  It was really nice to be there again to be working towards a goal.  I tried to take it easy I promise but just couldn't.  I got my 30 + min on the treadmill and 15+ on the cross trainer.  I ended up with just under an hour of exercise from the gym alone.
I found out yesterday that there is a walk for MS this weekend here in Emporia so now I'm scrambling to get donations for the walk.  I'm really excited to be walking for a good cause besides my own.  When I was a teenager I used to do those walk-a-thons  every year.  It's time I start finding walks and such to do... help others have a better life while helping to improve my own health.  I'm looking forward to tomorrow!

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/5/2010: 3486 calories burned, 8116 steps, 42 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Monday, April 5, 2010

Head in a Bucket

It's Monday and I'm not feeling any better than I was yesterday.  My head feels like it's in a bucket and I have a dry deep persistent cough.  I have it again and I know it for sure... I hate you bronchitis!  I hate being just fine and suddenly have a coughing fit that hurts my chest, throat and head and turns me blue.  It's a good thing I'm seeing the Dr. tomorrow morning after my morning bus route.  Antibiotics I need you!
It was a good day at work despite not feeling 100%.  Today is my mothers B-day and I found out she's getting married again!  You go mom!  Work was smooth no excitement from the kids which considering they are full of sugar from the Easter candy all went really good.  I have to admit I would rather have been home in bed but since what I have is not contagious I was there with bells on....maybe not bells but I was there. 
Once again I didn't make it to the gym for any formal exercise but tried to keep moving as much as possible while at work walking stretching etc.  I had every intention of walking from the bus park to the bowling alley after work but decided that I wasn't well enough to walk that far in the heat we had today.  I'm guessing the walk would have been about 2 miles give or take.  It's really frustrating to not feel well and want to go exercise ( something I never would have done a couple months ago).  I need to feel better, I need to stay on track, I need to keep going! Why, why now...let me be so I can keep working on my goal and my life. 

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/4/2010: 2471 calories burned, 1138 steps, 0 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise

Sunday, April 4, 2010

A Sick Day Today

I have been battling a head cold the last two or three days and I finally lost the fight.  I was really starting to feel rather rough by the time we got home from the wedding reception last night.  I woke this morning with my head cold in full force as well as a chest cold...it had traveled.  A couple months or so ago I got a bad case of bronchitis and it started the same way and I have all the same symptoms and feelings in my chest.  I still have the inhaler the Dr. gave me so I'll be using that for sure.  
Because I have not felt well I just took it easy all day and rested, watched movies and just vegged out.  I probably could have got out and at least did a slow relaxing walk but felt I should get rest instead.  My numbers today are going to be horrible when I report them here tomorrow.  Even though I wasn't feeling well we had a good Easter Sunday.
I sure hope the meds and sleep tonight have me feeling well enough to exercise tomorrow.  I don't want to get into a cycle of missing exercise... I don't want an excuse to not go.  I do have my scheduled appointment with the Dr. on Tuesday if I don't get better before then.  Well that's about it for the day... nothing exciting!

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/3/2010: 3514 calories burned, 8888 steps, 1hr 6 min moderate exercise and 5 min vigorous exercise

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Wedding Reception Calories

Last night I posted on Facebook that I was planning to be up and at the gym by 8AM this morning...well it didn't happen.  I was awake but my daughter didn't get up so I didn't bother her and apparently she was awake and thought the same about me so we were both in our rooms waiting for the other to come out...lol.   We both came out around 8:30 and just didn't have time to make it in town exercise and back for shower before she had to go to work.
I spent my morning on the computer trying to make homemade graduation announcements for Janaya.  Those things are expensive so Walmart.com it is for us.  This is my second child graduating and next year I will have another. 
Janessa had bowling league this morning so on the way home from picking her up I had my husband drop me off and I walked home.  The weather was perfect for me...upper 50's  and breezy.  I got in over 30 min of good walking so I figured that was better than nothing. I tend to really struggle to meet my targets on the weekend because I try to sleep in and become a couch potato. 
After my walk I colored my hair which needed it badly as i had way too many grays showing.  I feel much more refreshed and look younger already.
My Hubby's best friend "D" got married the other day and had the reception this evening at 5pm which was a lot of fun.  My calorie intake for the day was horrible because they fed us pulled pork sandwiches with homemade bbq sauce, baked beans with chunks of bacon and polish sausage and shoe string cheesy potato casserole...yiks!! OMG was it good but I was almost sick just thinking about the calories.  On top of that you have the cake, punch and nuts etc.  The good thing was they had a dance so I got a few of the calories worked back off from dinner.  Maybe my calories overall won't be completely bad  since I was doing really good before the reception. It's only one day and it was worth it.
My day went fast and I didn't get much done but I did get that long walk in so I'm still proud to have made the effort to get exercise in when it would have been much easier to just skip it for the day.  It's bedtime and kids are still awake so no Easter Bunny until they are down for the night. 

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/2/2010: 3367 calories burned, 6705 steps, 29 min moderate exercise and 27 min vigorous exercise

Friday, April 2, 2010

Funky Feeling

Boy did I need some sleep!  I went to bed late last night but I got to sleep in on a Friday morning...yippie!  I work for a School District and since it's Good Friday we had no classes and I got the day off.  My husband kept the kids quiet and I know this will hurt my calorie burn for the day but I slept until almost 10 am.  I haven't been feeling quite right so I think some extra rest was needed.  I have an appointment set for Tuesday to see the Dr.  She hasn't seen me since before I started my Weight Loss Journey so I really should get everything checked out good.  The last two or three days I haven't felt right so I'm a little concerned that somethings going on that I don't know about.  I've tried to ease up on my aggressiveness when working out but its hard because I want to see good numbers.  My guess is that my exercise is aggravating my health conditions and causing me to be uncomfortable.
My daughter and I did make it to the gym today and about 20min into my treadmill I got a little dizzy so I slowed down a little bit and finished my 30min.  I got a drink of water and went to the cross trainer.  My knees felt a lot better today than they did yesterday thank goodness.  We only put in about 10 min there because I was going downhill.  I was disappointed that I didn't get a whole hour in but at the same time my health is more important.
Based on the events from earlier today I came home and took it easy for awhile.  My hubby and I went grocery shopping and I was just ill and wanted to sit.  There is no excuse for this but I got myself so distracted with the events of the day I hadn't eaten much of anything and think most of my problem was low blood sugar.  No I'm not diabetic but I am Hypoglycemic and when I get to 80 I start feeling ill.  Darn me for not paying attention today... my routine was off but that's no excuse.
Anyway when I weighed in this morning and I was 295lbs....yeehaw!  It is another day of looking forward to tomorrow and what it has in store for me.  I would like to lose 20 more pounds by early June when I have School Bus Road-e-o.  I have one award to receive and if the competition goes well I may have another one and it would be nice to look and feel better when I go up in front of all those people to have my pics taken.  There you go that shall be my goal to work on.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 8000 steps, 30 min moderate exercise and 10 min vigorous

Actual for 4/1/2010: 4113 calories burned, 12578 steps, 1 hr 13 min moderate exercise and 11 min vigorous exercise

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Things are looking up

Hello again today was much better than yesterday.  After syncing my armband last night before bed I realized part of my problem yesterday.  Although I was in bed for over six hours the night before I only managed to get 4 hrs of sleep so that explains at least part of why I was lethargic. 
When I started a little over five weeks ago it was a struggle to reach my calorie burn for the day.  I am starting to notice some changes in my calorie burn.  I broke it all down and if I was at 1500 at noon and 3000 by 6pm I could reach the daily burn.  What I am seeing now is that my body seems to be burning calories at a slightly faster rate.  Basically I'm reaching 1500 burn between 10 & 12 as opposed to 12 & 2pm.  Does this mean that I'm gaining some muscle since muscle burns more calories than fat or is my metabolism starting to work a little better or both?  Either way I feel it's a move in the right direction.
Today was another beautiful day outside even though the wind was very strong.  It's hard to feel bad when it's so pretty and nice outside.  I should have cleaned my car out...all I would have to do is open all the doors and let the wind help me...lol.  Sounds like a great idea except i would end up in jail for littering then I would lose my job and so on... good thing I didn't make that choice.  I can clean the car tomorrow.
My eating habits were good today.  I didn't feel nearly as hungry as I did yesterday.  Maybe the reason I was so hungry was because my body needed energy and since I didn't get it from sleep the night before it wanted it from food.  Can that be possible? 
After work today Janaya and I went to Emporia Fitness to workout.  I put in 30 minutes on the treadmill but didn't push myself extremely hard because I think I popped my big toe out of socket because it was hurting really bad.  A couple hours later my toe was fine.  After the treadmill I got 15 min in on the cross trainer and called it good for the day.  My knees were killing me and it was a struggle to fight through the pain.   I do plan to hit the gym again tomorrow and hopefully earlier in the day.
Success will come from baby steps and doing too much too fast and getting hurt will do nothing but discourage me.  I know the phrase "no pain no gain" and I believe in it so please don't think I'm giving up because of pain.  I have given birth to six kids 100% natural with no pain killers etc so this is nothing, I just don't want to disable myself and have to start all over again.  Slow and steady wins the race.

Here are yesterdays final numbers:

Targets set by Armband: 3303 calories burned, 5000 steps and 30 min moderate exercise

Actual for 3/31/2010: 3630 calories burned, 8,980 steps, 37 min moderate exercise and 0 min vigorous exercise